A FEW WORDS

Feb. 1st, 2017 12:38 pm
69_crab: I DIDN'T DRAW THIS OH NO (KARKAT)
MY WRITING HAS NEVER BEEN POPULAR. HOW COULD IT? I AM AN UNKNOWN ENTITY AMONGST A SEA OF HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF LOUDER, OFTEN MORE TALENTED VOICES.

I THINK EVERYONE WANTS TO BE HEARD. SCRAMBLING SO HARD TO REACH THE TOP OF THE SEA SO THEIR WORDS BREAK THROUGH THE WATER'S SURFACE.
YET I DON'T STRUGGLE, LET MYSELF GET KICKED TO THE BOTTOM, TURN TOWARDS THE DARKER AND DARKER DEPTHS INSTEAD.

YES, I'M FRUSTRATED BY THIS. AFTER ALL, WHAT DOES IT MEAN THAT I DON'T HAVE ANY GOOD SENSE OF WRITING? OF RECOGNITION? DOES THIS MEAN THAT ALL MY WORK HAS BEEN FOR NOTHING AND NOTHING WILL EVER COME OF MY PASSION? DOES THIS MEAN THAT MY WRITING IS, IN FACT, AS TERRIBLE AS I FEAR?
(that can't be, that can't be, i frantically tell myself. others have read my writing, they said it wasn't terrible, they like my ideas)
THE VOICE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PART. HENCE MY CONSTANT SCREAMING ON THIS SIDE BLOG HERE. MY VOICE IS LOUD, BUT NOT LOUD ENOUGH. I HAVE THE DRIVE, BUT NOT THE PUSH TO BREAK THROUGH THE SURFACE.

DARKER, YET DARKER STILL...
IT'S A GOOD THINK I PREFER THE DARKNESS.

GODDAMNIT.

Aug. 24th, 2016 09:16 am
69_crab: I DIDN'T DRAW THIS OH NO (KARKAT)
THIS IS GOING TO BE THE LEGACY I LEAVE BEHIND. I'M GONNA BE KNOWN AS THAT KID WHO SPENT UPWARDS 12 HOURS IN HIS CAR AND LIVED TO TELL THE TALE.

I MEAN GODDAMN.

AT THE SAME TIME, SPREADING THE STORY IS KINDA FUN, SO I'LL DIVULGE THAT INFO FOR THIS JOURNAL.

THE FIRST TIME IS A SIMPLE MATTER. I TOOK A TRIP OUT TO SEE A FRIEND AND DROVE FOR 16 HOURS STRAIGHT TO SEE THEM. VERY EASY.

THE SECOND WAS MY ASS GETTING TRAPPED BEHIND A GODDAMN FIRE THAT CLOSED 9 OUTTA 10 FREEWAYS AND I HAD TO DRIVE A WHOLE MOUNTAIN AND TOWN OUTTA MY WAY IN ORDER TO GET HOME, ON TOP OF THE FACT THAT THE ONLY REASON I GOT TRAPPED IN THE FIRST PLACE WAS BECAUSE I WAS DRIVING MY PARENTS TO THE AIRPORT.
I WAS TRAPPED IN MY CAR FOR 18 GODDAMN HOURS AND IT WAS THE ABSOLUTE WORST 0/10 DO NOT RECOMMEND.

THAT'S ALL. KAY BYE.
69_crab: I DIDN'T DRAW THIS OH NO (KARKAT)
GLARING AT SELF INTENSIFIES.

WHATEVER, I WANTED A BLOG AND THIS IS AS GOOD OF ONE AS ITS GOING TO GET. NO ONE TO READ ANYTHING THAT I WRITE AND ALSO A PLACE TO SHARE MY THOUGHTS INTO THE EHTER. WHO COULD ASK FOR MORE.
69_crab: I DIDN'T DRAW THIS OH NO (KARKAT)
HELLO AGAIN. I'M MORE USING THIS AS A RANTING ACCOUNT THAN I AM FOR MUCH ELSE. BUT BE DAMNED, I DON'T REALLY CARE AT THE MOMENT. ALL I WANT TO DO IS RANT ABOUT FOOD AND HOW BULLYING IS UNCOOL AND ALL THAT SHIT. AND I WANT TO SWEAR, BUT THAT'S PROBABLY BECAUSE CAPS AND I'M TIRED.

WENT SHOPPING TODAY WITH THE PARENTAL UNIT AND BOUGHT A LOT OF GROCERIES. POSSIBLY TOO MANY. BUT IT RESULTED IN DELICIOUS SPAGHETTI AND INGREDIENTS FOR THE DISH KNOWN AS BAGEL PIZZA FOR THE MORROW, SO I WILL HAVE TO SUFFICE AND SAY IT WAS A RATHER PRODUCTIVE DAY. UNFORTUNATELY, I FEAR THAT THE AC IN CAT SHALL NEVER GET FIXED AT THIS RATE AND I'LL HAVE TO DRIVE OFF WITHOUT IT INTO THE NIGHT. OH WELL. I AM AN OWL BY NATURE ALL READY.

SONGS HAVE BEEN A PASSION OF MINE, RECENTLY. MOSTLY PERSONA 4 AND GAME GRUMPS REMIXES, BUT MOSTLY THE ONE KNOWN AS "LOST AT SEA" BY A ZEDD CHARACTER. IT IS PRETTY GOOD. AT LEAST, THAT IS THE OPINION I HAVE ON IT.

WHY AM I SPEAKING OFFICIOUS? WHY THE HELL AM I PUTTING UP PRETENSES? WHO THE FUCK KNOWS?
ON ONE HAND, I'M GLAD I MADE THIS ACCOUNT INTO OBSCURITY. ON THE OTHER HAND, I'M GLAD MY FRIENDS DON'T KNOW I RANT THINGS OUT IN THE FORM OF A KARKAT-ESQUE MONSTER THAT I CREATED ON A WHIM TO TRY AND UNDERSTAND THIS SITE KNOWN AS DREAMWIDTH. I HAVE A FRIEND HERE, BUT HELL IF I KNOW WHERE TO FIND HER. SHE'S NOT THE TYPE TO KEEP IN CONTACT WELL ENOUGH.
PERHAPS SHE IS TRYING TO GET RID OF ME? I AM AN ANTISOCIAL BASTARD. I THINK. MOST LIKELY.

TOMORROW I AM BAKING BAGEL PIZZA AND EATING THE LEFTOVERS OF THE DELICIOUS SPAGHETTI. THAT IS ALL.
69_crab: NONE OF THESE ARE MINE I STEAL ALL THE IMAGES (CYNDAQUIL)
SO RIGHT NOW I AM EXTREMELY INTERESTED IN PERSONA 4. IT'S INTENSELY INTERESTING TO ME AND I WISH I HAD A LITTLE MORE TIME SO I COULD WRITE AS MUCH AS I WANTED ABOUT IT. HOWEVER, I HAVE OTHER THINGS I MUST ATTEND TO, SUCH AS MY MATH CLASS AND PROSE CLASS AND PSYCHOLOGY AND I MIGHT OVERLOAD BY THE END OF THIS SEMESTRE.

EITHER WAY. I DEFINITELY DON'T HAVE THE TIME I'D LIKE TO DEVOTE TO MY NUZLOCKES OR POKEMON OR ZELDA OR ANY OTHER FREAKING GAME I'M PLAYING AT THE MOMENT.
I WOULD LIKE TO NOVELISE OCARINA OF TIME, MAJORA'S MASK, AND TWILIGHT PRINCESS, AND I'M WORKING ON A RETELLING OF WIND WAKER THAT MY FRIENDS AND I CAME UP WITH EONS AGO. I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO NOVELISE SUMMON NIGHT: SWORDCRAFT STORY AND TWIN AGE, BUT WOW THAT'S QUITE A LOT I'VE ALL READY GOT ON MY PLATE TO DEAL WITH.
AND I ALSO HAVE ORIGINAL IDEAS. HEY, AT LEAST I CAN FIND SOME TIME TO DEAL WITH THOSE.

BUT FOR NOW, IT'S MOSTLY PERSONA 4. I HAVE AN IDEA FOR WRITING AN ORIGINAL PERSONA STORY IN THE STYLE, BUT I'D HAVE TO DO A LOT MORE RESEARCH ON THE DIFFERENT PERSONA AND I'D HAVE TO COME UP WITH SOME INTERESTING CHARACTERS AND SHADOWS AND NAMES. THE JAPANESE NAMES. I HAVE A LITTLE OVER TEN RIGHT NOW AND IF YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT PERSONA YOU KNOW THERE ARE OODLES AND OODLES OF CHARACTERS. LUCKILY, FIGURING OUT THE NAMES IS THE FUN PART. THE NOT SO FUN ARE THE ARCANA AND PERSONA AND GAH.

I AM DONE SHOUTING NOW. GOODNIGHT.
69_crab: I DIDN'T DRAW THIS OH NO (KARKAT)
RIGHT NOW WE'RE KIND OF STUCK IN CAPS LAND
GOSH I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY
UH
HI THERE. THIS IS A TEST OF THE EMERGENCY BROADCASTING SYSTEM. WHO KNOWS IF I'LL ACTUALLY USE THIS OR NOT.
BY THE WAY, I THINK I SHOULD POINT OUT THAT I KNOW NEXT TO NOTHING ABOUT HOMESTUCKERS. MY BRAIN WAS FRIED AND I KNOW THAT THIS TYPE OF SPEECH CAN BE ENDEARING AFTER GETTING USED TO IT.
ALSO EASY TO TYPE IN.
I SHALL LEAVE NOW AS I PONDER IF THIS IS REALLY WORTH THE TROUBLE OF MAKING A LEGITIMATE ACCOUNT FOR. THANK YOU AND GOOD NIGHT.

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